(Counselor/Therapist) focuses a lot on journeying with
Others via the Subject-Matter
at-Tajnīn (Jinn-Influence) vs. Mental-Illness.
http://www.garethbryant.wordpress.com/2019/07/08/attajninvsmentalillness
It’s always surreal, anytime I look back at 2019, C.E. It’s because this is the Year where I became recognized for my Research regarding at-Tajnīn (Jinn-Influence/Possession) vs. Mental-Illness. My Research was picked-up a Year prior, by an Entity known as Muslim Mental Health: they work cooperatively with MSU/Michigan State University: Dept. of Psychiatry. Honestly, till This-Day: I’ve 0-Recollection of how I was even capable/able to make contact with Muslim Mental Health. For the Record: I honestly don’t even remember submitting my Research to them at all. This undoubtedly shows you how Allah works though. They alone knew that my Research was going to be excellent & beneficial for Others, in Ways which I personally could’ve never perceived nor forseen. My Research (ever since I embarked upon Chaplaincy in 2014, C.E.) has always been something which caught my Interest. But, at the Same-Time, it was also something which I never thought nor expected to acquire any Sort of Expertise concerning it…that is until Allah simply implanted via my Mind/Heart the Initiative to begin my Research about such a Theologically-Sensitive Subject.
at Cambridge University, UK
regarding my Research about
at-Tajnīn (Jinn-Influence) vs. Mental-Illness.
Even when I got Confirmation, that my Research was accepted by MSU’s Dept. of Psychiatry & received the Invite to present/lecture my Research via Cambridge University: I was scared. I was literally fearful of my own Accomplishment. Even the Day of the Lecture/Presentation: my Anxiety&Fear was the highest which I had ever remembered at That-Time. I was going to be in the Presence of Real-Intellectuals & I was truly afraid of fuckin-up…I was worried that I would fumble my own Work via my own Lecture/Presentation (this is literally the 1st-Time that I’ve actually expressed how This-Event truly affected me publicly for the Record). I actually felt like I didn’t even belong in such a Prestigious-Setting. I was literally in the Same-Room as Geniuses, Masters of their Respective-Fields…Master’s-Degree Recipients Ph.D.-Holders, etc. And, there I was a Skinny-Nigga from NYC who barely finished College-Undergrad. I was truly intimidated. I remembered arriving at the Cambridge University Campus (Beautifully-Constructed & Massively-Expansive by the way)…I had gotten there about 2-Hours prior to my Lecture/Presentation-Time & for Good-Reason. I was Completely-Spellbound at the Campus-Scenery & my Intimidation literally got me Completely-Lost…I had to ask so many Personnel where I was supposed to be on Campus for the Conference.
I finally get to the Lecture/Presention-Location…I had this Insatiable-Urge to use the Bathroom. When I get to a Bathroom, I literally didn’t know whether to Piss&Shit on myself, Vomit, Cry, Pass-Out, etc. My Nervousness was literally through the Roof. But, then, Allah (Allah is Amazing) had thus reminded me of one my own Sayings: “Courage isn’t the Absence-Of-Fear, it’s the Willingness&Ability to confront Fear.”. And once I was allowed to remember that, I was able to say to myself: “Nothing/no one’s gonna stop me…I’m doing this & I got this!!!”. Needless to say (via the Help-Of-Allah): I aced my Presentation…I rocked the Entire-Audience of my Lecture/Presentation-Peers. I had never seen so many Academics in 1-Setting before whom were in Complete-Awe of my Work before. It was truly a Humbling-Triumph for me which’ll remain longlasting, as long as Allah allows me to live. (If Allah preserves my Memory) I hope to never forget the Pride I felt, which I acquired after doing so well, via my Lecture/Presentation at Cambridge University. I mean it didn’t truly hit me, how important it was what I’d done, until after I completed my Lecture/Presentation. It represented something important…that my Work is valuable…that Higher-Education and/or lack thereof has 0 to do with Intelligence&Knowledge, etc.
Gareth Bryant 1443, A.H./2022, C.E.
Gareth Bryant 