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What I’ve Finally Learned From Ramadhan:

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Ramadhan of 1437/2016 will always be the year I’ve come to terms with what this month really stands for. To many Muslims, it’s a way to get closer to the proximity of Allah’s Mercy, for Others it’s a reason to fraternize with fellow Muslims in ways that’s not necessarily available at other times of the year, for some it’s an excuse to attempt to get in shape/lose weight, for some it’s the ideal situation to indulge in some Free-Food at various Mosques. But, for me personally, I’ve forced myself to search more indepthly, just to see what can be found within this month.

What I’ve come to realize is that Ramadhan for so many of us is to attempt to be a “Super-Muslim”…only during the Month of Ramadhan, and/or only during the last 9/10 Days of Ramadhan, in the hopes of catching what’s known as Laylat-al-Qadr/the Night of Decree, in which the reward for it is similar to worshipping Allah for 83 years.(Noble-Qur’an: Chpt.97, V.3) For so many Muslims, we wait for this time of year to pretend to be “Super-Pious”: praying, giving Charity, being nice, etc., more than in other times of the year. However, many of us have this all wrong. My personal-assessment is that Ramadhan serves exclusively as a period of Spiritual-Purging. I liken this month to the etymology of the Arabic-Noun Fitnah…the word Fitnah, meaning “Problem”, “Conflict”, “Drama”, “Trial/Tribulation”, etc., comes from Gold/Silver Smithing.(Lisan-ul-`Arab: Lexicon of the Arabic-Language) Because Gold & Silver is from deep beneath the Earth and/or embedded within Mountains: oftentimes these metals themselves are meshed which earthly materials, which diminish their value.

So, then what’s to be done about it? The Gold/Silver must be melted down, and then be forged into a purer substance. But, to do that, these metals need to be placed under extreme temperatures, thousands of degrees, in order to melt them, so that the turbid materials attached to these metals can be sifted away. And, this is exactly what Ramadhan is to me, a way to sift through all of our turbidity, so that we can be forged into purer types of People. We must allow ourselves to be placed into the heat of Hunger, Thirst, denial of our natural inclinations towards: Sexual-Intercourse, Anger, Revenge, Violence, etc. & all other things which naturally make us…well, Humans. The entire purpose for us to be Spiritually-Smithed is so that we can truly be worthy of the Favor of Allah, which is His Mercy, Guidance, via us acquiring Piety (holding ourselves accountable to refrain from all that Allah has made temporarily Mahrum/Prohibited, as well as things which Allah has made Mahrum at all times).(Noble-Qur’an: Chpt.2, V.183)

For some/many, you’ve probably already come to this conclusion, without me even having to write this. But, I’ve deemed it necessary, because it’s something that I’ve come to the realization of, and I’m sure that I’m not the only one who hasn’t truly gotten the point of what Ramadhan truly stands for. Ramadhan, by its nature, isn’t for us to get things right all in one month, because that’s not even realistic. Rather, it’s a time to really dig through one’s self, to reflect upon what makes you work vs. what makes you halt…what makes you strong vs. what makes you weak…what makes you resist vs. what makes you sin, etc. I now have a greater understanding of who I am, as a Muslim, as just simply a Human-Being.

Everyday is like a fierce Internal-Fight: a perfect mixture or even an imbalance of spiritual victories & defeats-Resisting what just naturally comes to you, what automatically feels good and feels right, and struggling to rise above all of that to be someone greater, someone higher. It’s about sacrificing what you think & feel is for you, in order to please you, and really trying your best to replace that mindset with doing what’s expected of you from Allah, in order to please Him. Since arriving at this particular epiphany, in my journey as a Muslim, I’ve attained a better sense of how I am to improve and what I allow myself to still fall victim to. I’ve truly honed in on remaining more conscious of what drives me more towards Obedience vs. Disobedience to Allah. This is what I’ve been allowed to learn during Ramadhan, through the Mercy of Allah.

Gareth Bryant/2016

 

A Necessary Ramadhan Personal-Reflection In Mercy!!!

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Here’s a story for the Record-Books:

Ramadhan 1435 AH/2014 CE…I went to Masjid Ar-Rahman, on 29th St bet. 5th Ave & Broadway, in Manhattan, NYC-After making the congregational Maghrib/Sunset Prayer, my shoes go missing. I’m honestly mad as Hell: those Sneakers were brand-new & fresh out the box, I barely had them for a whole week, I got them for free…they were a gift. So, you can understand why I was duly pissed all the way off!!! I felt so violated that someone, a Muslim, would dare to steal something during Ramadhan in the Mosque no less. I was just thinking in my mind what I would do, and how would I hurt this Person who took what was mine, if I woulda caught-up to them. It even got to the point when I was yelling, and causing a scene, concerning what was taken from me. Some other Muslim-Brothers attempted to clam me down, but it just wasn’t working: I came in the Mosque with my Sneakers, and I had wanted to leave with my same Sneakers. But, guess what happens next?

Check-out how merciful Allah, the Creator/Lord of the Universe is:

1. He bestowed mercy upon the one who took my footwear, so I would not have acted out of anger against a fellow Muslim, during Ramadhan of all times.

2. He touched the heart of a Muslim brother who volunteered to give me his own shoes.

3. He touched the heart of another Muslim brother who actually drove me to a sneaker-store & bought me a brand-new pair of Sneakers…cash, which ironically were fresher & cheaper than the sneakers that I had gotten taken from me at this Mosque…the Sneakers which were taken from me were the Nike Andre Agassis, in Dead-stock/Brand-New condition. But, then the brother had bought me a pair of Nike ACGs, also in Dead-Stock/Brand-New condition.

4. Most importantly: the person who took my Sneakers actually did me a favor, because along with my shoes being taken, then perhaps a portion of my Sins have also been taken from me, which will make it easier to meet Allah on the Day-of-Standing, because the less Sins that a person has on their back, the better for them, when it comes to being judged by Allah on the Day of Days…So, I still considered myself a Winner.

Gareth Bryant/2016

Recycled-Remission

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I tell myself each day I breathe, “Fall back this is wack!!!”:
Stop living in the Past, you gotta just stop treading back.
Why continue to love one who don’t even love you back?

I keep reminding myself, “Just chill, and stay Trill”:
When Others are Fake, you just have to stay Real.
Don’t kill yourself pleasing People for their appeal.

However, I’m constantly pulled-back, into the grasp of Foolery.
I wanna be free of all negativity, but change is too new to me.
I wish my Heart thought like my Mind, to simply want Liberty.

People always want what they want outta you.
Once they’ve had their fill, you’re expendable.

It’s easy pretending to care for someone, when needing them.
After you’re where you wanna be, you then treat them terrible.

That’s just the way Life goes: back & forth between what feels good versus what’s good for us.
Constantly battling within, internally, deciding whether to do right or simply surrender to lust.

Sometimes the People we enjoy the most love us the least.
Just trying to keep us around, tied to that gold-plated leash.

But, just like their adornments, it’s only superficial.
Dig deeper & you’ll see they’re truly bitter & brittle.

Gareth Bryant/2015

Deception is a 2-Way Street:

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You say I’m unfaithful, but look at you…
…you’ve had another Man in our home.

How can I trust you to keep what we share sacred…
…if you’re with another behind closed-doors, alone?

You have accused me of lying, and not being transparent…
…but, your dishonesty has been even more than evident.

You stated that I’ve been communicating with someone behind your back, while you’ve done the same…
…how dare you then pontificate integrity to me, when you’ve committed the same crime of utter shame?

It’s hypocritical, utterly despicable, how you’ve tried to paint me as the Bad-Guy…
…you think that it’s okay to play this game, just because I was the first one to lie.

Now, I’m the first to commit my own wrong…
…yet, I’ll never allow myself to be slandered.

You have no justification to view me as anything less than a Man…
…you’ve done everything to have me see myself a callous Bastard.

Why did you lie, about the Man in the shadows of your Heart?
Why have you now allowed him to step-in and to tear us apart?

Gareth Bryant/2015

Exploring You:

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You are uncharted, unclaimed, unscathed, untamed…
…I wish to plant my flag upon you, to enjoy the fame.

Your deep, green rainforest, wet with wonder…
…so many secrets to reflect upon & discover.

Your wide valleys I run through, play & frolicking…
…I’m spellbound by your beauty which is amazing.

At night, staring at your moonlight, as the wolf of your desire howls…
…because of my penetration into your sky, as though flying with owls.

I set you ablaze, as if your body were a forest-fire, but, you don’t want to put the fire out…
…your trees & leaves melt, as my burning touch causes you to pleasurably scream & shout.

I am able to make you flow, like a gushing river, dampening a desert, once barren with loneliness…
…but you are now fertile soil, with me as your farmer, who scatters your seeds of bliss in a tempest.

My long, sturdy, canoe, navigates into the caverns of your mountains & caves, never seen by anyone…
…as I squeeze the hips of your borders, you whisper to me my name, as I satisfy you until I’m done.

As I pull on your hair, as the wind pulls on trunks of trees…
…my fingers glide down your back, as if waves on the seas.

Exploring you is my ever longing adventurous chore…
…every time I search inside you, I find so much more.

Gareth Bryant/2014

I want to give You Comfort:

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I wish I were there to brush your cheek & dry away the tears…
…to have your head laid against my chest, to calm all your fears.

It would be my joy, if I could expel from your life, all that makes you annoyed…
…this would make me happy, to relieve you from anything you’d want to avoid.

Your anxiety keeps me focused on how important you are to me…
…your sadness makes me even more interested in you as a priority.

My desire to to grant you bliss, from your lips to mine, with just one kiss…
…I want to protect you from insults, envious & poisonous as a snake’s hiss.

When those that hate you, cause you fret, remember that I love you, don’t forget…
…we will always have one another, as companions, friends, as sister & brother.

You’re like a bright jewel in the darkest night’s sky, way upon high…
…you cause me to yearn to grab you and hold you; I wish I could fly.

You are so strong, yet you’re so gentle…
…the way you approach life is so simple.

I’m yours & also you’re mine…
…let’s enjoy each other’s time.

We should run away together, from all the madness…
…be one another’s support, to cure our joint sadness.

I want to stamp out all your troubles, just as we stamp out a poisonous bug…
…the best moment to me is seeing you happy, when I give you a tender hug.

Gareth Bryant/2014

 

Gareth Bryant vs. Cyrus McGoldrick:

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Author’s-Note:
Every month I’ll be conducting a Poetic-Challenge, challenging various poets, whom I personally know/interact with, just for the sake of sharpening/improving my own poetry, general-goodwill, respect for my fellow “Brethren of the Paper & Pen”, and to just see who from among us has the best “Poetry-Skillz”…Every month, I’ll be picking a brand-new Poetic-Challenger, via Facebook/Twitter, to compete with. This month, it’s Cyrus McGoldrick. Next month, it could very well be anyone of you. So, just be prepared, with some fresh-rhymes.

Topic: Yearning for something More

Gareth Bryant

Gareth Bryant

The Warmth We yearn from one another:

When the blistering Winter descends…
…We can no longer afford to pretend.

We get cold so quickly, it really hurts…
…We pursue warmth which takes work.

We all want the heat of Love, to warm our heart…
…Each of us wants a companion who’ll never part.

But, Life is sometimes a cruel Snow-Storm, covering all in its path, with the crispest & iciest harshness…
…However, we must make a Summer out of every Winter, protecting our hearts from a freezing-tempest.

We mustn’t succumb to the hypothermia of Loneliness…
…We all need someone to keep us from cold distress.

Being close, to the one who you love, is one of the greatest feelings of all…
…So, think about the one who keeps you warm during the heavy Snow-Fall.

Gareth Bryant/2014

Cyrus McGoldrick

Cyrus McGoldrick

ROARS OF THE RESTLESS:
Patterns of romances
low lights
private dances
signature strike timing
slow trances
Recital
thrown lances
light bites
the plight of the banished
without a standard
no understanding
a clan reprimanded
Plans
paths that never intersect
cattle gaining interest
calves that pay the rent
rattlesnakes in nets
Sweat
treasure in bared chests
reflections of red flares
messy confections
bred best
sleds sent
some bent and some went
Guns kept for your protection
legs stretched
rented apartments and tents
learned little and read best
roars of the restless
Wrapped in heavenly blessings
missing senses and tests
my second death
ascension that dents impressions
no bodies left

Cyrus McGoldrick/2014

Do You want a Wife or a Baby-Momma?!!!

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Don’t be tryin’ to creep into all the Sister’s-Circles, pretending like you’re lookin’ to get intended.

When what you really want is another notch on your belt, someone to slide with, to take to bed.

Playing with a Believing-Woman, you’re playing with Fire.

There’s no extinguisher for any Man’s misdirected desire.

Just because she gives you “Salam” doesn’t give you the green-light to slam.

If your claim of loving her is true, go to her Guardian, do it right & be a Man.

You are supposed to be collecting blessings, not “body-counts”!!!

What’ll you do, if she gets knocked-up & your name announced?

Now, you’re spending the next 20-years, making Repentance…

…For a few moments of pleasure, barely more than 60-seconds.

Gareth Bryant/2013

I’m One with the Wind:

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I am that newly fallen Leaf, in October…

…flying in the Wind, when Summer’s over.

I dash across the seas & oceans, like the Atlantic…

…leaving all stress behind me, I’m not at all frantic.

You cannot keep-up with me, I’m up, too high, in the Sky…

…You didn’t want me when I was here, so time to say “bye”.

Your loss, not mine…

You could have been with me, among the Eagles.

Now, you’d rather send me away…

But, it’s okay; I’m totally free from your shackles.

There’s no return, once I’m gone…

…and, I do not mind being alone.

The Wind, which carries me, to any place that I wish, will compensate for you not having you here…

…Being out and about, without a care in the World, takes away the pain of you not being near.

Gareth Bryant/2013

The Reality of Breaking-Up with Someone:

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Regardless to how difficult it may be, when you are with someone & it’s not going anywhere, it’s time to let go & move on: some relationships just can’t be fixed & some people just shouldn’t be together…And, that’s OK…that’s Life. We all should/must come to terms with the reality that just because we want to be with someone doesn’t mean that we belong with that person and that some people are just not in relationships for the same reasons: some people get into relationships just to pass the time, or to escape the realities of their own conditions…then there are those who sincerely want to do good by others, but are never appreciated. With that being said, when it’s finally time to call it quits, don’t cry about it, because a person who just wants to be with you on their terms, or who doesn’t appreciate what you’ve done for them, or who only wants you for what you can give them, isn’t worth your love, concern, time, energy, resources, and they are not worth you missing them & they’re not worth your tears…#NoRegrets

Gareth Bryant/2013