Tag Archives: Loneliness

The Stillness of Loneliness:

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Pitch black, quiet…nothing moves, it’s silent.
Darkness covers the Sky as I tread defiant.

I once was beloved, now I am so hated.
At one time victorious, now so defeated.

Loneliness fills all of my mind with agony.
Still as a stagnant River frozen by apathy.

Around many, yet distant from all.
None to feel my pain, hear my call.

Looking for closeness with anyone.
What a test for me, to be so alone.

Oftentimes, I feel dead, yearning for the free-flow of Life.
No worries about foes or dangers, not even fears of strife.

Alas, the irony is that there’s a morbid comfort in Obscurity.
It sometimes protects us from self-torture & offers security.
Gareth Bryant/2015

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I am the Pursuant-Panther!!!

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Jaguar pic

As I swiftly sprint, through my Jungle-Domain, all pause, as though they’re on my Hit-List.
They are in awe of my strength, my Colorful-Coat, my Sharp-Claws, my Paws, Mighty-Fists.

I’m the only one of my Kind, I am the King of the Amazon.
All I have to do is roar and everyone in the Jungle is gone.

But, it’s so lonely, at the Top; it’s like I have no one to share my Beautiful-World with.
It’s like I’m without Family or Friends…it feels like I am always alone: no Kin, & no Kith.

I love to be around Others, to play, not just to hunt and kill.
I just wanna know how it feels to be Part of something Real.

When I am present, Others are deathly afraid.
I’m just anxious to get along, to have it made.

I wish simply to live, and enjoy the Good-Life, with every Jungle-Neighbor.
I want them to know that me being a Jaguar doesn’t define my Behavior.

What I pursue is more than just a Fresh-Kill: I pursue Community.
I desire to be one with my entire Environment: I only seek Unity.

I search for Love & Understanding.
Honestly, is this too demanding?

Gareth Bryant/2013

The Ballad of a broken Man!!!

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I would give anything, to get back the time I’ve spent on people who never even mattered.
It feels as though I vainly wasted all of my energy on fields, which could never be pastured.

People whom I had thought would be good for me; yet they did nothing, but prove me the fool.
I’ve deceived my own self, believing they truly wanted me for me, and that everything was cool.

The fact is that my time has been wasted.
It’s the truth & I just can’t bear to face it.

As time has gone by, I have voluntarily placed my heart in the darkness.
It’s like it’s been in a freezer, covered with a thick, icy gloss of sadness.

The fact is that my time has been wasted.
It’s the truth & I just can’t bear to face it.

My experiences have converted my heart, from a piece of tender flesh to a slab of cold stone.
I’m in constant fear that it may very well be my sad destiny to live out the rest of my life alone.

The fact is that my time has been wasted.
It’s the truth & I just can’t bear to face it.

It’s really too perilous for me, to forget all of my former emotional pain.
I’m just too afraid to open my heart to someone, for anyone to explore.

I often wonder whether or not I can trust again.
I hope to attain a sense of true love once more.

Gareth Bryant/2012